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the smell of smoke
Apr. 3rd, 2007 10:33 pmI'm watching this thing on National Geographic about Columbine, or I was starting to anyway. I'm barely making through the opening description of what happened. Anywho, I'm watching it and one of the people they interviewed, and whom they subsequently reveal to be a survivor (he was shot twice in the head and once in the foot), was 17 years old at the time of the incident but is most definitely an adult now. He wasn't the only one who's interviewed who's all grown up now, but seeing this particular guy my first thought was "Well he's a man now," and my second thought was, "But aren't we all." And then I kept watching and listening and got all weepy.
Anywho, my thought is that, y'know, if you live long enough you can "grow up" out of anything. I mean the guy, like I said, is clearly an adult. If he hadn't said with his own mouth that he'd been shot twice in the head you most certainly wouldn't know it. And so even though I am positive that he has scars that are beyond seeing, on some level you get to move on and some of your scars heal. And I think that with God's help even the deep scars, the ones no one knows are there but you and God, heal as well. Those are, of course, the really hard ones to heal and you have to want to heal - and even though those are probably the ones that leave behind "scar tissue" I think it's possible to be so completely healed that you shock yourself, and that someone who didn't know what you had been through wouldn't be able to tell unless they were told.
I know...all of that from 12 minutes. Okay, the 12 minutes was really just the first para. The rest is extrapolation and the pulling together of other thoughts on the subject.
Anywho, my thought is that, y'know, if you live long enough you can "grow up" out of anything. I mean the guy, like I said, is clearly an adult. If he hadn't said with his own mouth that he'd been shot twice in the head you most certainly wouldn't know it. And so even though I am positive that he has scars that are beyond seeing, on some level you get to move on and some of your scars heal. And I think that with God's help even the deep scars, the ones no one knows are there but you and God, heal as well. Those are, of course, the really hard ones to heal and you have to want to heal - and even though those are probably the ones that leave behind "scar tissue" I think it's possible to be so completely healed that you shock yourself, and that someone who didn't know what you had been through wouldn't be able to tell unless they were told.
I know...all of that from 12 minutes. Okay, the 12 minutes was really just the first para. The rest is extrapolation and the pulling together of other thoughts on the subject.
